KAJANisme at it’s BEST

I shared earlier this year, that one of my goals is to beef up..@ take up bodybuilding..

It’s not something out of the blue, it’s actually something that I’ve always wanted to do. What’s my motivation? Why do I want to do this?

In my younger days (not that long ago, undergrad days), that’s what I wanted to do. I had the time (reminiscing..those were the days) to do it, but I don’t have the discipline..

I’m blessed to have an active metabolisme.. I was skinny back then, but I have great appetite. I’m able to eat a lot, yet.. nothing happens.. Well, I do exercise regularly, playing soccer and basketball.

Second year, I’ve decided to take up bodybuilding. Did everything I could, bought Weight Gainer, regular attendance in our local gym.. But one thing I didn’t do.. I didn’t do enough research. I only depended on regular meals (3-4 times and inconsistent), and the weight gainers. Truth is, I was ill-prepared, ill-informed. So, naturally, nothing happened. And I blamed my metabolisme.. I gave up after 4 months.

Today, I’m a bit worried..  Living in Kuching,Life is good.. Somehow, true, I don’t exercise as much as I want to..

I see friends and family members, certainly working life has an effect on them.. They don’t look like they used too.. Bahagia lah tek, and we can see it on their expanding waistline.. hehe.. And it does to me too.. My waistline though..it doesn’t expand that much. But I gain weight nevertheless.. My thighs, my God, it’s big now.. Would you believe it, nine kilos in 2.5 years.. (64 to 73)Perhaps.. my metabolisme has slowed down..

But guess what? My body mass has finally increased, and shouldn’t I thank God for it? I’ve always wanted to look good, and healthy.

I had a fear.. That I might be fat again.. That’s right, emphasize the word "fat again".. I was once fat (from ten to sixteen years old), and I certainly don’t want to be again, never..

Please don’t  misunderstand me, thinking that I judge people on their appearances. I don’t. People have the right to be happy. Overall, I was happy back then, but that part of me, being fat made me unhappy. More than anything, I know what it likes being a fatso..( I don’t have to open the can of worms).

My teenage and early twenties, I managed to lose it naturally (lost it to my height?), to the point of being bony. It’s not that I starve myself, it just active metabolisme coupled with an active lifestyle.

Things I do conciously.. Instead of taking the lift or escalator, take the stairs, instead of taking the bus, walk (undergrad days). Hehe.. sounds like I’m giving tips here on weight loss.. Did this in addition to regular exercises.. But I must say, I had a lot of energy.

Now, my goal is different. True, I don’t exercise as much as I used to. But certainly I’m wiser.

I’ve been skinny all this while, now the challenge is to look buff.. It’s not wrong to aim high. I don’t aim to be the next Mr Olympia, Mr Universe etc.. For now, my aim is to look like those underwear models.. (”,) Big chest and abs..hehe..

I’m on my way.. I’ve made my initial investments. I’ve made my research.. Hopefully, I’ll achieve my dreams (or should I say, dream body)